Grandpa--

My Mom called me around 10:00 yesterday morning to let me know that my Grandpa Tuttle had passed away.  It was VERY unexpected.  He just collapsed.  I was on the phone with her for about 1 minute & then she had to go & she said she'd call me back.  I think I went right into shock.  I cried & cried & cried.  How could he be gone?!?  I wanted to be able to SEE him one more time & TELL him goodbye & at the very least get ONE MORE HUG from him.  (He gave FANTASTIC hugs!)  I couldn't believe it.  Morgan came over & asked me what was wrong.  I told her that my Grandpa-- Her Great Grandpa Tuttle had died.  She told me she was sorry & then kind of disappeared for awhile.  When she came back she didn't say anything, but she dropped this note on my lap... It made me cry, but made me feel really great at the same time.  Thanks, Morgan!!!

The photo isn't great (it's from my phone.)  Here's what it says:

Dear Mom,

I'm really sorry that Great Grandpa Tuttle died.  I am really sad.  I hope you don't stay sad for a long time.  I want you to know that you will see him again because we are an eternal family.  I love you.

From, Morgan

Then, during Sacrament Meeting I was having a hard time. All of the talks were about the resurrection & about people dying.  The first talk was given by a friend of mine & she started her talk by sharing that her Grandfather had passed away about 6 months ago & how hard that was for her & how it had affected her life. She had spent a lot of time in reflection about her life & her choices after he died. Well, as you can imagine this hit me hard. My Grandpa had just passed away a few hours before this. I was crying again. Morgan asked me for a piece of paper & then wrote this:

Grandfather
Righteous
Always There
Nice
Diligent
Promising
Awesome

Tuttle
Unfailing
Truthful
Talented
Leading
Everlasting

Grandpa,

I really love you. I know we will see each other again. I really want to see you again.

From, Morgan

Thank you again, Morgan!! You have helped make a REALLY tough day better.  I am so pleased & happy & ENCOURAGED by your faith!!  I KNOW that I will be able to see my Grandpa again someday.  I sure wish I could see him today, though!!!

My Grandpa was such an amazing man!  He always made ME feel amazing, too!!  Every time I saw him he let me know how proud of me he was (He'd always say that the buttons on his shirt were about to burst with pride!) & about how he loved my little family SO MUCH & how me & Nathan were such GREAT parents & that we were doing such a great job with our kids.  He had such a wonderful gift of radiating the love he felt ONTO YOU.  When he told you he loved you & that he was proud of you & that you were amazing, YOU KNEW IT WAS TRUE!!!  I could always feel his unconditional love-- not only because I was family, but because he loved me FOR ME!  I am going to miss him SOOO much!!

I am so excited for this weekend to celebrate his life & to be able to see the rest of my family & visit & just REMEMBER HIM!!!  It will be a great/tough weekend for sure.